What is the best advice you were ever given?
“You can’t let your past dictate your future.”
I feel like all my sentence starters are cliche. I know that there are people in life that have gone through exactly what I’ve been through and worse. I feel whiny and selfish talking about it. Still, every once in a while, I need reminders that my past can’t dictate my future.
Mistress Pixie makes this state when she observes that I am falling out of my submissive role. I mean this is going to happen naturally. People ebb and flow with the demands of life and sometimes we are spot on and sometimes we just need the extra support.
Thanks to growing up a male and other various experiences, I tend to fall into self-kink shame. I have spoken to this a few times but it is a real issue I have to work through. I grew up in a household where the male is the authority figure and dictates how and when things happen. My father lived the typical American male culture where the man of the house has the final say and nobody dares to argue.
Life situations have put me in positions where I was called weird and not normal, maybe even slightly crazy. Responses like “ugh, why would you want that?”
Sometimes I default back to that way of living. Sometimes I have to make the conscious thought that it is okay to be who I am. It is okay to kneel for my Mistress. It is okay to be bound and penetrated and enjoy that session, even wish to talk about it in a group of like-minded people.
I can hear her now. “You can’t let your past dictate your future.”
Thank You Mistress Pixie.
Kneeling Kitty 