Denied

I took the plunge. I officially asked Mistress to remove penetration orgasms from our lifestyle. With the addition of our new chastity device on its way any day now, I figured that this conversation would be happening sooner or later. I have mentioned this to Mistress before, but we weren’t in the right place for it. Now, we have our third and final child, and she doesn’t need the goods the same as she did before.

Additionally, she has had an increased level of domination over the past few months. I mean, the other night, she denied me the ability to pee and then restrained me to a chair until I couldn’t hold it any longer. Not only did I embarrassingly piss all over, but she also left me to sit in it for some time while she watched some reality tv show. I feel that it is the perfect time to remove penetration orgasms.

I went full transparency with Mistress. If you have ever been denied release and then granted that fantastic moment, you will know what I am saying here. After a grandiose orgasm, my mindset shifts quite a bit. I am still a submissive male, but I have difficulty focusing on my Mistress’s priorities and begin to feel the “societal” male creeping up. But, when I am denied, I don’t experience that at all, and I can focus on Mistress. We had that conversation, and that is not the first time. She already knew that by my behavior after she grants release. I also shared that I feel happier when she denies me for extended periods. It is probably related to the control she has over me when she rejects me. I feel more like myself when she refuses me for an extended period.

Her rebuttal surrounds the possibility of prostate cancer. She is worried that I will get prostate cancer if I do not get a release occasionally. I explained to Mistress that I am referring to penetration orgasms only. That means that she can provide releases however she sees fit. My specific example was milking since we are gaining a new chastity device. However, there are a few more I have thought of since our conversation.

I also did some research on the topic that I sent her. The initial research that I found stated that males that ejaculated more often appeared to have a lower rate of prostate cancer in their future; however, the research didn’t mention other possible contributing factors. Also, the study speaks explicitly to male ejaculation with and without the act of sex. That is the research I am banking on. Furthermore, the mayo clinic states that no evidence links frequent ejaculation and the reduction of prostate cancer.

Research aside, I find the idea of removing penetration orgasms incredibly sexy. This is the drive of the male mindset formed when we were wee lads. Removing this aspect from our life would be another form of ultimate control for Mistress, and I know how that gets her juices flowing. She may even make a visit to Roger just reading this paragraph (more on Roger later). Mistress and I have talked about my fetish for being forced into situations. Predicament bondage is my sweet spot. Now, imagine being denied for six months then have a forced orgasm through milking while in some hardcore bondage. Gosh, I need to stop. My interim chastity device is being put to the test right now.

Until next time.